Last week I went to Fox Box in the V&A Waterfront for a manicure and pedicure. I had my camera with me (as I do most of the time now, since I’ve started vlogging) and I got chatting with the ladies, who are just full of character and always make me laugh.
We got into a real conversation about body image and loving your body. I was pleasantly surprised when Soso said she loves her body. It just got me thinking about body shaming that seems to be quite present online lately, and while I thought Vlog 5 would just be a show-you-around-my-day vlog… it turned into something a little more intimate.
I’ve gone through quite the journey with my body and it’s made me thankful for the body I have. I’m thankful that I’m actually in a good place and even though it’s not exactly where I would like it to be, I am appreciating where it is right now. I am loving the skin I am, focusing on being healthy, appreciative and enjoying everything – the flaws and all.
I never used to be like this… I am incredibly hard on myself and would really beat myself up over it, mentally and emotionally.
I was one for always moving goal posts. What I mean by this is, I would set a goal, achieve it and then instead of celebrating that, I’d just move the goal post and beat myself up over the new hurdle I had set myself.
I’ve stopped doing that and now I celebrate every little achievement. Every single one.
Every single gold star I place on my calendar (you can read more about this here.) Every time I say no to birthday cake in the office and don’t feed my sugar addiction, every time I replace a negative thought with a positive one.
In fact, over the weekend I needed to get myself new jeans. I tried on my usual size and they were loose. I tried on a jeans size 28 and they are snug and comfortable. I couldn’t believe it. I don’t think I’ve ever been this size in my life. It was a very proud moment because I’ve made sacrifices and it has not been easy work. The feeling I had in the change room is something I wish I could bottle and sell. I felt so motivated and proud of myself and I sat reflecting over the few years of where I’ve come from, how hard it’s been, how I’ve failed and tried again (a few times over) and how I’ve overcome many of my own mental and physical hurdles.
I must be honest, I initially felt hesitant to share the above paragraph, and vulnerable to share this entire post, because I immediately thought: Oh gosh, what could people say? Will they think I’m being boastful? Then I realised that I don’t care for those types of people anyway, and definitely won’t be hindering my excitement or snuffing out a proud moment because of them.
I’d really appreciate you watching the Vlog (and subscribing) because I have 5 ways to help you love your body and I’d love to start a kind conversation. How do you feel about your body?